tears

things have been crazy here lately. im at moms for a week, i get used to being there and i go to my dads for a week, i get used to being there and im back at moms...it sucks that when school starts i will only see mom 4 days a month. hoepfully that wont take too much out of me. it seems sometimes that out of me and my two sibblings im the only one that even attemtps to love both parents. they both have their faults, but they are our parents. my sister wont even talk to my dad, and my brother, well he comes to visit when he feels like it. sometimes i get so tired of fighting a losing battle...fighting for a lost cause, i dont even know what im fighting for anymore. in the midst of everything going on my heart seems to become weak, and my mind controls my thoughts,and my heart has the littlest say so in what goes on in my life. i dont like that at all. i dont know, i feel like im rambling today so im going to go.